today's poem

presses hard and follows me into space
with nothing but this quickness of breath I fall
and through your loving embrace I am blanketed
blankets fall along with the questions of you
you
dammit I know you
and I know where you are
within all these questions I have made my decisions
they lie within my spaces
my neurons
firing squads of synapses settling into more questions
questions, always these fucking things
I think I pretend to not know when I know what I think
I don't have anything but doubts about these realities living in me
freefalling
in comfortable space sitting at this small table
staring at this screen
and I am empty within
this vessel of a universe within a greater question of god
who is it
what are you asking of me?
and if you don't ask me
then I will give you no help
I give no help
I fall with no hands beside me
I am sorry for it
I am sorry for it
for all these wandering failures through me
vapid
it's all vapid.
you know.

12/14/09

I support the status quo
In action only.

You ignorant pigs
Chewing all you're fed and shitting it back to the system
Step outside your fucking box.
And see the blackened skies
A tool until the end
I stand beside you yelling
We're in this together.
But you're watching the television
Checking the latest shit as it rolls across the screen.
Collect your drivel, your spam, your waste of life.
I can't watch this go on.
Your story is someone else's, you bought it with your Visa.
I hope the end is worth it,
Cause the journey wasn't.

12/2/2009

Rocks crawl
Melancholy souls simmer
Pages deluded by ink

November 2009

I.

I fought unknown forces
I tackled my demons unseen
Through forests of nerves and sinews
I wondered when it would end.
And you I sought through it all
A glorious vision of peace
I wrap my arms around you
Let my tension release.

I am a knight in the night
I have journeyed for days and not years
I'm seeking the roots of a quest
That plays upon all of my fears.

II.

Burn with passion
And life will alight
I said to her
It'll be alright
Don't step out your door
Until you're ready for a ride

Said she'd do as I told
Even though she was scared
I'm scared too, babe
But life needs the thrills.
So we took it together
And tore through to space

I wanted more
And I wanted you more
And more kept on coming
Still I kept on the gas.

January, no it's February

Investor
Filling orders requested
As signs dwell between past and present
I am in those spaces
Are you listening as particles collide over me?
New noises and new toys to make me known
Don't deny me my existence
In this hungry place the liberty is satisfying my cravings
Quietly I dwell
As the afternoon sun hides from warming me
But cool air can do nothing to reslice the past
Thanks to those who make me nervous
I need you plenty as I need no one else.

When I wanted
Things were easy
Now wanting is not enough.
Taking means the world
While I give my soul to stop.
You could take me away
And everything would remain.
Don't let me change,
For the world will swallow and leave me breathless.
Translation errors destroy
And you leave my country
New but not different.

Electric wires
Killing with noise and power
Coursing through this life-source
Stinging with new life.
So raw and yet,
Tamed unbelievable
What did they used to tsay
About me?
Back in HS
When larger worlds mattered less
And now there's more that matters
But it still seems less
Just changes constantly
It's baseball time now
And softball time, too.
I might play softball.