November 2009

I.

I fought unknown forces
I tackled my demons unseen
Through forests of nerves and sinews
I wondered when it would end.
And you I sought through it all
A glorious vision of peace
I wrap my arms around you
Let my tension release.

I am a knight in the night
I have journeyed for days and not years
I'm seeking the roots of a quest
That plays upon all of my fears.

II.

Burn with passion
And life will alight
I said to her
It'll be alright
Don't step out your door
Until you're ready for a ride

Said she'd do as I told
Even though she was scared
I'm scared too, babe
But life needs the thrills.
So we took it together
And tore through to space

I wanted more
And I wanted you more
And more kept on coming
Still I kept on the gas.

January, no it's February

Investor
Filling orders requested
As signs dwell between past and present
I am in those spaces
Are you listening as particles collide over me?
New noises and new toys to make me known
Don't deny me my existence
In this hungry place the liberty is satisfying my cravings
Quietly I dwell
As the afternoon sun hides from warming me
But cool air can do nothing to reslice the past
Thanks to those who make me nervous
I need you plenty as I need no one else.

When I wanted
Things were easy
Now wanting is not enough.
Taking means the world
While I give my soul to stop.
You could take me away
And everything would remain.
Don't let me change,
For the world will swallow and leave me breathless.
Translation errors destroy
And you leave my country
New but not different.

Electric wires
Killing with noise and power
Coursing through this life-source
Stinging with new life.
So raw and yet,
Tamed unbelievable
What did they used to tsay
About me?
Back in HS
When larger worlds mattered less
And now there's more that matters
But it still seems less
Just changes constantly
It's baseball time now
And softball time, too.
I might play softball.

Into the East I went wandering
And west and north and south,
But I missed too many people,
And people pass away.
In darkness I knew you,
In daylight your grin said everything,
Anger and joy and all that you were,
Is still here burning today.

Wound up trees and radiant branches,
Grow so cool in the sun,
Passionate leaves and shaded grasses
Take solace til seasons undone.

So many days seem nothing
But nothing is a something,
And lost in shallow breaths,
Are all creation's feeling.
Your breath is sacred
The earth called you home
I didn't want you to go
But she called and you stopped roaming.

My steps are light in front of me,
I trod no grasses wild,
I want to burn the paths
Remove the trails by fire.
I know we're moving forward,
By the places that are gone.
I feel progress in these photos,
The past seems bright, but I must be moving on.

Brother, these days don't pause anymore,
They don't rest anymore.
They don't pause anymore for me.

Late night on the longest day of the year (I think)

[I] try to stay calm
As others lay high in hotels
The building blinks like stars
I am below
Enjoying the lights shimmering.
The city disrupts though,
Rotors and voices.
My facade is brought up.
I am questioning it all now.
Everything is halted now for others
I want my solitude.
But who knows when I'll get it.
I've got a month, right.
Then the road, silence.
Slow steady accomplishment.
All the while my everything burns a short walk away.
We all want peace here.
But can I relax?
And I can't stop listening!
My voice is gone.
JC Christ, Urban Outfitters, apartments!
Stop talking!
Please leave my mind my own.
I pause, reread, and step into the water
Lest I distract them.
Reciprocate, justice, fairness.
I must
Breathe
Breathe
Hold
Am I smarter?
No.
I've no rhythm.
Not what the water holds
Press, push, silent all the while
An extra layer of depth
Reflects the vertical mile
I'm allowed silence.
To me it's given.
And I take it.
Breathe.
Release.
Thank you God.
Let me appreciate you for what you are.
Slow waves spread outward.
Spurred on without needing me.

6/21/08

Brother I saw you on the rock crying
Your tears carving canyons on its face
You cared not for that around you,
While time stood its place
You needed not keep pace
Leaves fluttered down around you
And you thought of nothing but space.
Its void full of naught but blue
That most hateful hue
And only ahead the next something
To replace this nothing.

6/14/09