When I wanted
Things were easy
Now wanting is not enough.
Taking means the world
While I give my soul to stop.
You could take me away
And everything would remain.
Don't let me change,
For the world will swallow and leave me breathless.
Translation errors destroy
And you leave my country
New but not different.

Electric wires
Killing with noise and power
Coursing through this life-source
Stinging with new life.
So raw and yet,
Tamed unbelievable
What did they used to tsay
About me?
Back in HS
When larger worlds mattered less
And now there's more that matters
But it still seems less
Just changes constantly
It's baseball time now
And softball time, too.
I might play softball.

Into the East I went wandering
And west and north and south,
But I missed too many people,
And people pass away.
In darkness I knew you,
In daylight your grin said everything,
Anger and joy and all that you were,
Is still here burning today.

Wound up trees and radiant branches,
Grow so cool in the sun,
Passionate leaves and shaded grasses
Take solace til seasons undone.

So many days seem nothing
But nothing is a something,
And lost in shallow breaths,
Are all creation's feeling.
Your breath is sacred
The earth called you home
I didn't want you to go
But she called and you stopped roaming.

My steps are light in front of me,
I trod no grasses wild,
I want to burn the paths
Remove the trails by fire.
I know we're moving forward,
By the places that are gone.
I feel progress in these photos,
The past seems bright, but I must be moving on.

Brother, these days don't pause anymore,
They don't rest anymore.
They don't pause anymore for me.

Late night on the longest day of the year (I think)

[I] try to stay calm
As others lay high in hotels
The building blinks like stars
I am below
Enjoying the lights shimmering.
The city disrupts though,
Rotors and voices.
My facade is brought up.
I am questioning it all now.
Everything is halted now for others
I want my solitude.
But who knows when I'll get it.
I've got a month, right.
Then the road, silence.
Slow steady accomplishment.
All the while my everything burns a short walk away.
We all want peace here.
But can I relax?
And I can't stop listening!
My voice is gone.
JC Christ, Urban Outfitters, apartments!
Stop talking!
Please leave my mind my own.
I pause, reread, and step into the water
Lest I distract them.
Reciprocate, justice, fairness.
I must
Breathe
Breathe
Hold
Am I smarter?
No.
I've no rhythm.
Not what the water holds
Press, push, silent all the while
An extra layer of depth
Reflects the vertical mile
I'm allowed silence.
To me it's given.
And I take it.
Breathe.
Release.
Thank you God.
Let me appreciate you for what you are.
Slow waves spread outward.
Spurred on without needing me.

6/21/08

Brother I saw you on the rock crying
Your tears carving canyons on its face
You cared not for that around you,
While time stood its place
You needed not keep pace
Leaves fluttered down around you
And you thought of nothing but space.
Its void full of naught but blue
That most hateful hue
And only ahead the next something
To replace this nothing.

6/14/09

If the world rested, relaxed,
Then we could be free.
Float away with the sea.
Break the orbital chains
And watch space contract
Feel our blood react.
Mixed with solar dust
Quickly enter our pains
Perhaps followed by gains
But I'm space rust
Consumed by solar lust
And I hope you want me.

6/9/08

In Cate's, on the futon

I'm thinking about location
And cast shadows
On walls and doors
Showing through
Closed eyelids
Contemplating the strength needed to reopen
I'm thinking about friends
And more
And actions taken or less
Visitors and mountains
Climb, fuckers
Sluts, is this adventure?
I once did not know what I know now.
Refraction keeps me at bay.
Let him go.
Let him go soon
Let's finish it all.

5/13/09